How many times have you been hurt in love? How many times did you feel rejected by a man / woman? How many times did you dare to love again and then it all fell apart or never even happened and you were left feeling foolish again for ever daring to believe? How many times have you been disappointed? How many times have you felt as though your cared much more about love and the relationship that the other person did? How may times did you dare to open your heart again only for it to be shattered? How many trust issues do you now have surrounding men / woman? How badly did you feel let down, unloved, unappreciated, unseen, uncared for by your parents? How many times has love "failed" only to convince you more and more each time that love remains an impossible dream that you are helpless to attain or is constantly "kept from you" by the universe? Does it feel like a direct rejection from God? A punishment perhaps?
But what if love has only eluded you all this life because you didn't realise that you are love, and chasing love on the outside was taking you further away from who you are on the inside - love. What if experiencing blow after blow and feeling totally cut off from love on the outside forced you to withdraw and then go inwards to help you discover you ARE that love. What if it was never a punishment but the way the universe has been helping us to return to ourselves, to return to TRUE love. So within, so without can only happen when we've first reunited with the love within.
Running after love was only really chasing after someone to reflect love back to us, so we can see we are lovable, that we ARE love. But then we would become too heavily dependent upon finding it outside of ourselves to validate we are love because deep down we'd forgotten we are already love on our own, we don't need another to prove it to us. We came here to demolish the "separation consciousness" to transform it into "unity consciousness" and so everything has happened to force you back into yourself, to find your truth of love within.
Love only appears to remain out of reach when we continue to believe we are separate from it and so continue to seek validation outside of ourselves. We've experienced so much perceived rejection and separation from love and this creates an overall belief that we will never find (oneness with) love.
Our past rejection and wounding from lovers and parents makes become very cynical about ever receiving love. So when it comes to our twin flame we think "Why would you be any different to my past heartbreaks? Why would this connection turn out any differently from the past?" There's a subconscious belief that it won't. There's a subconscious expectation of being disappointed just like all the other times. It's happened so many times before, so it seems logical it would only happen the same way again. We've lost faith, we've been conditioned to NOT believe we can experience love on the outside.
There's even a fear of changing that incredibly limiting belief - of actually believing this time around love will work out in case it ends up just the same as all the other times. Then it would hurt even more because we dared to believe all the more in this twin flame connection. Then we'd feel even more rejected because we allowed ourselves to be more vulnerable in believing.
We're afraid that if it still doesn't work out even after believing even more, then our faith will be shattered for good this time, that we will never believe again in love, that someone will love us and we will feel all is hopeless, love will never come, love will never work out, we will never be loved.
Our past wounding and believe that we are separate from love causes us to lose all hope and we don't dare to fully trust again. We've been hurt so many times that we begin to expect all sorts of negative things surrounding love.
We expect to be hurt
We expect to be cheated on
We expect to love the other more than they love us
We expect our the other person to value the relationship less than we do
We expect to be rejected
We expect to be abandoned
We expect to feel the universe has taken love away from us again
We expect it to all be hopeless
We expect to be disappointed
We expect it to all be taken away from us
We expect to feel foolish and humiliated AGAIN
We begin to try and protect ourselves by pushing away the love or creating safety nets or barriers so we don't have to open our hearts fully so that we are more prepared for the worst we expect to happen. With such limiting beliefs our frequency actually blocks us from receiving love when we expect the exact opposite of love to happen.
We are terrified to trust. Part of us really doesn't want to trust because we did that before and look how much pain we experienced. We think it's all hopeless, love is stuck at arms length forever as that's how it's always been our whole life. It feels impossible to trust when we feel we've been shown love is always out of reach at all other times - THAT feels like the reality. To trust in love feels like we're trying to convince ourselves the sky is green when really it's blue. How can we trust the sky is green when it appears to be blue? Aren't we just being foolish, aren't we just going to end up feeling stupid and humiliated if we dare to believe it's green and it turned out to be blue all along? How can we trust that there is green within the hidden frequency of light if our eyes cannot see it?
Love always seems like such a struggle to attain. We wonder, is it even possible? It feels out of our control, we feel confused and uncertain about how to get it, we feel stuck in the dark about it all.
So what are we really afraid of? We are afraid failure to unite will mean love will never be achieved, love will never be our reality. We are afraid to find out that answer, afraid to get close to the twin in case our biggest fears are proven correct - love doesn't work out for us and that it likely never will.
How does this go deeper still? Well, underneath it all we are afraid that we will be kept locked out of our wholeness and peace. For we ARE love, that is our true identity. Deep down we are afraid to be "proven" that we will forever remain separated from our soul if we cannot have love, find love, sustain love. Our deepest core is frightened to death at the thought of some kind of external universe judging us as not worthy to come back home by connecting with love.
This is where the illusion of separation comes in - we forget that we ARE love and there is no separation. It's all about realigning with it within ourselves. But the reflection of the twin and feeling as though we are "cut off" from the love we share with them makes us very concerned we are "cut off" from the universe, our home, cast out, an outcast deemed unfit for the love of God/ Source / The Universe.
We are afraid to plunge into union in case we are "proved" unworthy. But really it would simply mean we are still stuck in the illusion of unworthiness and being separate from love / god / the universe, so it would simply mean we are NOT YET READY.
This is ultimately why sometimes we push away the opportunity of love - we either believe it's not going to work out based on past experience, or we are afraid that if it doesn't work out that we are rejected by God.
But really we are still caught up in this illusion of separation from love and being judged unfit to "have the right" to align with the love. The universe is trying to help us. It is trying to return us to remembering that we ARE love, to return us to unity consciousness. This journey back to ourselves helps others also to be able to do the same. It heals the planet because without the illusion of separation, rejected, judgement, supposed worthiness and unworthiness, there will be no need to project all our pain out into the world and try to gain power to prove our worth in some other separation sonsciousness, me vs you way. Everyone will know they are one with love, they are always worthy just because they exist and people will be able to give and recieve love simply and without fear of it being taken away from them.
How many of you, deep down, still believe that whatever happens in your connection is based upon whether God deems you worthy or not for love? How many of you are afraid of union not happeing because you believe it's a sign that God decided you were unworthy and failed at becoming "perfect" enough? How many of you are afraid that if it doesn't work out with your twin flame then it will prove that you will never experience true love to the depths of your soul, to the depths of who you are, that you will always be "severed" from it? You are feeling intense rejection just at the belief that you are being judged or have to prove yourself, or earn the right to experience love. This is all part of the illusion our souls want to now overcome.
The key is to reconnect with the love within. It's been said so many times, but it's the ultimate truth. We want proof that union and love is guaranteed and in truth, if it is your real twin then union is guaranteed because it's already here, we are living it. It might not appear that way, but once all the illusions are stripped away there is only the truth of oneness in love. The only place we find a guarantee is when we find the love within and so it reflects without. When you are connected with your core love, you know your worth, you know you are always one with love and thus one with your twin, you know you are not judged or cut off, you are not fearful, you align with love and allow love to become you complete reality inside and out.
As always, Love and Light to you,